Flyyy lke a G6!

Be back in a month time! can't wait till this over. I can't imagine the fun I'll be having (: Well, wish me luck! :)

3D loser.

Beyond stress. I don't think you need to help me by adding yourself into my problem list. Don't you think so? :)

The new building was somehow a symbol of torture for us at the top floor. We have to went through like 8 flights of stairs to get to our class. and when we reached there, there wouldn't be any energy left in us. THIS can be a reason for a decrease in our productivity. Do consider moving us to the ground floor, our very kind principle?

26 days left. Minus the one week that we were told to take it easy, it's gonna be 19 days left. Minus the Saturdays and Sundays, we're left with, 7 days? So come on everybody, LET'S GET PANIC.

My mind is distracted. I can't study if my mind keep on worrying about unnecessary things so yeah thanks. Thanks to you, I'm gonna sleep early and not revise for tonight. Minus today, I have 6 days left? Oh yeah A VERY BIG THANKS BABY BOY. :)

My exam's result sucked asses.

Ah

Since I'm sad now. I don't feel like elaborating. Well thanks for ignoring me when I needed you the most! I love you to infinity and beyond (:

P/s :

You couldn't forget the past? Let me tell you a little something. What about the past you built up for me? You still pictures it in our present. Now tell me, how can I forget? How can I move on? (:

What used to be.

THIS - was the beginning of the year when everything was still okay. When the only thing I lost was a significant other. When family was the people who made my day. We had weekly picnic routine and it was a MUST. I used to bragged about it when I was forced to come along but now I realized how much I missed it when we're not doing it anymore.

We fell apart. And the saddest part is, there's no way thing gonna be the same again. Just like that, all of it disappeared. Just like that, we changed. Just like that, all these wouldn't be happening again. Maybe it would, but in a different way. The way I still could not imagine.

She left. and another she changed. It's just different and it's not okay! :( I miss my sister. If there's anyone knew how it felt like, it's Aom. I knew she doesn't like these changes too. Who does. It's a bad change, no?

Yeah its already 1AM and I'm still awake writing this emo post. Baby fishy is asleep since the past 4 hours. Despite the fact that I think I needed him the most by this hour. Blegh It's okay have your rest I knew you needed it. (:

I don't feel like sleeping I feel like crying my heart out. Any free hugs out there? Haha.

Prosperity

Let's update properly shall we? :)

Starts off with yesterday. Went out with them Azizi to celebrate his birthday. Along with Amal, Adzman, Icam and Awg Adib. Oh oh Aleen and her friends were there too. It was quite a fun day, I may say. Though they didn't want to accompany me watch the movie. Sighs I guess I just have to do that other time. Okay whatever. Went there when it was nearly 11am. Yeah seriously THAT early. I got bullied all day with these people as if I'm the 3 years old girl there. I don't like it >:[

Ate sushi yesterday and finally fulfilled my cravings! ;) Such a wonderful feeling right? But it cost us that much too. and I still thought it's not fair Icam paid for it too when he didn't even eat anything. That's pretty much everything that happened yesterday. Minus the negative things.

Went to tuition right after that, where everything got so messed up. I think I don't know how to control my anger anymore. It's getting worst. Tbh, I didn't know how did I managed to stop myself from punching you in the face. I'm sorry? Really. I broke a lot of stuff in my pencil case and my pens aren't functioning properly anymore. Stupid me.

Got few papers today which I can honestly say I'm frustrated with. Haha I think I got the lowest mark for maths. I didn't study for it, serve me right for taking it easy. BM was .. Okay? I think. The guys accused Cikgu for being biased for my marks. Jahat betul. >:( anddddd as usual, I failed my addmaths. (W)

I just baked chocolate cake and I need to make the topping but I guess I just do that early morning tomorrow along with other food. Having Ramah-tamah tomorrow and I hope it's gonna be a good day. Ciao xx

I misssss youuuuuuuuuuuu I wanna text youuuuuuuuuuuuu sorry for hitting youuu sorry for treating you that waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

/die

Buzz

Screw all my emo thoughts and posts. Maybe if I stop thinking, you'll start realizing. I'm praying all the best to happens and there, I'm gonna take it as it is :)

The final exam has ended! Ahhh I felt good. The last paper was Chemistry, last night I slept at 8PM and today I didn't bring my calculator. Ha. Es-stupidas.

I went to the Pustaka this evening. It was crowded though and we ended up in the discussion room. For just like, 1 hour. Hey at least I finished 2 question of addmaths! That was considered productive okay. We spent the rest of the evening just hanging around doing nothing. I'm glad baby fishy were 'into' my Mystery song! Love you lok? ;3

The cousins just went back home. It was not that fun having your house as the centre of discussion. It's like this place is a community house, a PWTC or anything you can relate to place-people-went-to-solve-their-problem. Hey my mama isn't any counselor okay? Give her a break. Pfft.

Pipin and Mika was soooooooooooo adorable I can eat them alive. But I think thonk Mika was cuter today. He kept on falling when he was trying to balance himself psssssssh. And and he didn't have any curl hair on his hair anymore. :( It was fun playing with the head though! ;)

At least my cousin, Mira and I earned something today. We did some car wash service despite the boring conversation they were having. Trust me, we did good :D and just for the record, I think the problem was solved. Enjoy the freedom you want, woman. Don't come tell us you regret your own decision. Stupidity gets me, man! Blegh.

SO I'm gonna get my beauty sleep now. Ciao xx

Confusion

One time I decided to stopped. Another time I thought quitting wouldn't worth my effort. I really don't know what's next. Might as well stop having any feelings.

2 papers left. I felt great realizing that. But remembering I have add maths' paper tomorrow, I don't feel any better now. Mom is making me help her for the meal she's having tomorrow at office. I have like, tonnes of cooking to do now and I don't think I can revise for the hardest subject I ever known. What am I thinking anyway, I would never even score if I studied for it. Heh. Nonsense.

Ah ah ahhh. The pda is keep on playing the same song again and again. Just asked baby to give me songs and yeah guess that's what I need. New song to refresh my brain. Hee

The brother agreed to go out with me. I feel honoured he still wants to go out with me. And yeah I can't wait to spend some time with him again, being worry-free. Ha except I haven't tell someone. Whatever.

Gotta get back to the cooking. Muchas Gracias xx

SOS

I don't see the point of holding on to something so unsure.

I wanna snap back into reality of what could not happen.

I need help :)

Wo ai ni babygirl.

... and we thought it was cute to virtually get married on 10/10 yesterday. Ha what's with us and cool dates? It brought bad luck once. I'm sure this time it's no difference. Okay, let's just pray it goes the opposite way. Amin.

The second week of trial exam is here. Today we had Biology papers. It was quite hard than the previous trials. I hate everything that Bio relates to plants. It's just too complicated for my mind :C

I feel like a mother without a husband. Cooking meals everyday as if it's my responsibilities. I doubt this will stop even though I have lots of studying to do. And this does stressed me up. Ugh.

I miss Tumblr. I can't wait for these depressing days to be over. I just wanna be free from all these complicated mind. The bad news is, I am NOT looking forward to moving at the end of the idea. I hate the idea of that. I loathe that decision.

Let's hope for the best for tomorrow. xx

Googleybear

Ah. Look what day is it already. It's Saturday and I feel .. Relaxed :) Because? Because I didn't worked my ass up for the exam. 5 more days. 10 more papers. I'm excited!

But the bad news is, less than 2 months left. Less than one month and a half. I stop counting. It's too terrifying to think about. It's depressing. HAHA fuck I don't wanna leave school. I'm not ready for the after-school life. No matter how much I hate it.

Talking about school. Mine is a military-based school. They run a military concept kind of school. Thank God they didn't make us march every morning. and okay, thinking about this, I AM SO READY TO LEAVE SCHOOL. :D

Let's talk about the exam. The papers were fine. It was extra easy this time than the other Mocks we ever had. Except the Add Maths paper. Because no matter how easy they made the paper, I would always take it as SERIOUSLY HARD. Darn it.

Can't wait to finish the exam! :) Then I think Imma spend some time with the brother. His birthday coming up. Unfortunately, I'm not even sure if he wanna go out with me anymore. Sighs. Let's just hope for the best, shall we?

I repaired the old pocket pc and yessss I won't be needing this laptop to listen to songs. So there's no more reason to sit in front this thing. Ha. But too bad can't get online using it since it's DAMN old I tell ya! :(

Okaaaaay why are we kept on arguing? F man. My baby is schizophrenic. Or bipolar.

First day.

Playing Mariah Carey's songs like YEAH.

The first day had begun. The final trial for the SPM examination is actually here. I can still remember I told people I'd start my revision right after Mock 2. And look at me now. Left with so little time and so much things to catch up.

It was a wrong decision to take that pill when I was having headache this morning. It would be okay if it was Panadol but too bad it was a fever pill. Which works on the headache but unfortunately needed me to sleep. Yes, sleep. So I was struggling from not sleeping.

Which leads to a mental blockage during my English paper. I was then, disappointed with myself. I need to do some revision for tomorrow's papers. Hoping it would not be hard.

Hopefully.

Now tell me why do I have this bad feelings? Sense something bad will happen. Sighs.

Lupa

My goodness. Perut masih kenyang makan lalapan. Thanks babe. HAHAHA.

I haven't talked about today. Today, we sent the tables and chairs to the examination hall. You know what does it means? It means we're gonna be having our exam sooner than soon. SOON.

I am not ready. I don't bother to get ready.

All I can think of now is, sleep.

Cave in.

You know whats the worst thing about telling you how I feel? The feeling you give me after you knew. What you said after what I've told you. It's not right.

What's not right? Okay let me see. When I said we had enough, you ask me you sure?. Yeah, no effort to do something about it eh? I know you had enough. Me too. I had enough too. I'm quite sure we're going nowhere.

I'm backing out now.

I know we're not in a good condition to be like this. We know what we're gonna be having in these few weeks. I wanna be there to support you. But all I do is tense you up. What do you expect me to do? Everything I did bring you down! :'(

How can I possibly make it clear to you that you are the best thing I never knew I needed? I really wished we can work this out. But I guess I left us with no choice. Then I'm very sorry.

I guess I'm just gonna sleep for the night. Another day gonna be wasted. Good luck with the exam, girl. :)