good thursday.

HEYYYYYH. :]
it's another boring day of school. i oh-so-fucking hate that school now.
i'm joking. i always hate that school.
but it's really making me sick to my stomach now.
THANK GOD i have friends and such.
its justtttttttttttttttttttt..
everything you do there, it's always wrong.
nothing is right when it comes to the student behaviour.
probably not all. most definitely not to whom we may call the teachers' pet.
the teachers LISTENS to you. be prouddddd mothafucka.
well, whoever that is.
and us THE BAD ONE. yeah, we always got the blame for the wrong things that we've done.
big thanksthanksthanks okay? *clapsclaps*
and yeah, i do give a damn.
i dont really care that much 'cause i know what i've been doing.
but pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaseeeeeeeeee. i'm so tired of this.

so we discussed about the trip to SCV today. marv was like, all stressed up thinking about it. pity her. she hates receiving negative thoughts from people. dont worry. I'M HERE TO SUPPORT! -.-" and theres lot of others too. hee. the discussion haven't finished yet. we gonna resume it tomorrow at the Pustaka. or you can call it overtime works. we really wanna go you know. & ME? why do i wanna go? 'cause i wanna get away from all these. home, school and everything. please please please give us the chance to go. :/ Amin! we don't really have enough time to do the planning and all but with great determination and group works, it might happen. lulz. that sounds just lame.

sist! yea youu. who else. i soooo miss you right now.
i hate this place. i hate myself. but i miss you. hahahahawtf.
i dont think i wanna move there next year.
cant leave my friends. cant leave that damn retarded school.
it's too early to berdikari. :P
but i dont know. i might think about it again.
i'll tell you when u're back here again. *jumpjumpyeayea*
i checked the website you told me.
and end up being so blur. i dont understand a thing.
that's not my level. hahaha.
but it looks interesting with the kids pictures in it!
especially the Smart Readers Kids Junior. :))))))

uhm. to whom it may concern.
i'm sorry for being such and idiot.
i know i must have done something wrong.
well that's just me. I AM WRONG.
you know what. you shouldnt be treaten that way.
i mean, you shouldnt get sakit ati and all that.
but that is something i always do & that is really sooooo not fair for you.
i'm putting an effort to it. to show you i really cared.
i'm just not sure whether it works. did you even see it?
i guess not. i dont even think it's obvious. or did i even try?
blegh. i dont even understand what i'm tryna say.
but whatever that is.. you think on your own.
do you want someone WRONG like me?
i love you. :/

argh. my back hurts so much. and my right hand. and my legs.
and my head. and my neck. and my heart.
i want to sleep. SINCE I DONT HAVE ANY OTHER THINGS TO DO.
but i dont feel like sleeping.
why do i have to be so pathetic huh?

i hate myself. ugh!

somebody please kill me,

nuggie.

bothered.

the content of this post may be a lil bit confusing.
just like how i'm feeling when i'm typing this ; totally confused.
and annoyed, maybe. irritated. clueless. and ..... bengong. hahahhaahhaha.
i'm just so not good at turning my thoughts into words.
i'll try. here we go :

so when i came home from school earlier this evening.
that someone sent me a text. as simple as that.
i have no idea why he suddenly do that.
i thought the topic was over. no more to be talk about.
but then he do it againnn. but it was not that long.
only three or four texts. then he didnt reply, as usual.
maybe because i sindir him. padan muka.

i just don't understand.
it's like he thought that i'll do what he wanted me to.
as if he still OWNS me.
and could control my mind.
and make me decide.
well, that was back then.
he could do that when i was still with him.
what am i kidding. HE DID.
and now i realize, what a loss. haha

what he said was.. uhm. what did he said.
i dont remember. sheesh.
but i still remember some.
one of it was, he state - any boy except him.
see what i mean?
as if i ask him who should i be with. blegh.
but when i ask why should i listen to him..
he said he's just suggesting it.
he should remember that he's the one that encourage me to be with that guy. :)
i guess he mudah lupa kind of person. or cakap-takda-makna kind. wawa
but now, i have no idea what's his problem with him.
there's always something wrong.

i guess i'll just .. not care about it..
i bet he wont really wanna be with me again like he said.
GOOD. haha
ya la susah mun dah org rasa disayangi gilak. nyampah.
maybe he's tryna make himself remembered ho? lol

furthermore, i'm happy with the way things are going right now.
really happy. haha.
thanks love. :)
for making me move on.
you are truly an angel.
i didnt tell you about this? sorry.
it's just, i dont want to talk about it.

it's nearly 1am already. i better go to bed now. bbye. :)

life goes on and on and on,

nuggie

here i am again. :)

so here's the blog i said i'll create after the bloody exam.
i finally DID it. yay me. :)
thanks sis for the name. those idea u gave are all good. not. hahha.
i'm really not sure whether this will be an up-to-date blog or another ancient one.
but i'll try to update it whenever i have the time. or can i say when i'm not having a life.

for the last 14 days, it has been really tiring.
having only 3 hours of sleep per day is not good. avoid thattt.
consuming caffeine everyday helped me. thank you nescafe. :]
but too bad, you gonna feel really tired the next day.
wait. to those people who are still thirteen or fourteen, don't ignore your studies.
well that's what i did for the last two years and i'm so regretting it now.
last minute study does help. but not that muchh.
at least do your homework if you dont want to study.
i know i didnt. aha.

a lil info about the exam. the first two days was tough.
it was bm, p.i, english and science.
it's whether something is wrong with me or the fact that the qs are really hard.
the next three days, it was quite easy. Alhamdulillah. (:
and that was maths, history, khb and geo.
though i know i got many wrong answers.
cant help it. i was so damn sleepy.
all i wanted to do was finish it and start sleeeeeping. grrr.
i can honestly say i have no confidence at all and i'm so scared of the result.
i'm not even looking forward to it. ngeh

the days are finally overrrrr. i had let out all of those knowledge to the air.
3 + 6 = 8. see what i mean? haha, it's not really like that la.
i just dont have the spirit to think anymore.
i guess i'll start thinking again by next year.
i had already start laughing so muchh like i used to. wheepdeedoo.
HAHAHHA. :D

did u realize that the time passed so quickly? 'cause i do.
felt like it was just yesterday i went to the school registration and said "lmk gk pmr yaa."
and those days i said " tggu tinggal seminggu gk".
ha ambek kau. kan dah nyesal. hahha.
it's really fast. three more weeks of school left.
and the programme they prepared for us are so 'interesting'.
how i wish they just let us have hols or just left us with free time to spend at school.
but they dont. blegh. luckily it's only three weeks.
at least we can still see our friends at school.
that's the great part about going to school. haha.

a special thank you to everybody ;
thank you my beloved family.
thank you my sisters.
thank you my brothers.
thank you my monkeys.
thank you loooooove.
thank you aunties.
thank you uncle.
thank you teachers.
thank you classmates.
thank you friends.
thank you stranger.
thank you anyone that involved in my life.
thank you to who said good luck to me.
mygdness, thank you to EVRYONE :D
love ya'll.

it's already 4 am now. i can hear zac's and vanessa's voice.
i can even see them on the tv in front of me.
i have no idea why i'm not sleeping yet.
i was sooooooooooooo sleepy last night tho. ha.
maybe another 30 minutes.

to my boulevard sis ain ;
you know what u have to do next right? haha.
i'm tooooooo lazy to edit it bahh.
thankssss levyouuuu.<3

kthxbye,

nuggie.