What used to be.

THIS - was the beginning of the year when everything was still okay. When the only thing I lost was a significant other. When family was the people who made my day. We had weekly picnic routine and it was a MUST. I used to bragged about it when I was forced to come along but now I realized how much I missed it when we're not doing it anymore.

We fell apart. And the saddest part is, there's no way thing gonna be the same again. Just like that, all of it disappeared. Just like that, we changed. Just like that, all these wouldn't be happening again. Maybe it would, but in a different way. The way I still could not imagine.

She left. and another she changed. It's just different and it's not okay! :( I miss my sister. If there's anyone knew how it felt like, it's Aom. I knew she doesn't like these changes too. Who does. It's a bad change, no?

Yeah its already 1AM and I'm still awake writing this emo post. Baby fishy is asleep since the past 4 hours. Despite the fact that I think I needed him the most by this hour. Blegh It's okay have your rest I knew you needed it. (:

I don't feel like sleeping I feel like crying my heart out. Any free hugs out there? Haha.