and how to say this..

Salam blog. it's Friday. two more days. omgah. I'm quite scared but too bad I'm still inside the I-don't-care. went out again today blog. :) I feel happy. very happy to meet him again. though I'll be seeing that face five days per week again starting next week. guess I just couldn't have enough. and by that, my day had complete. off to bed now. HAHA xda camya ilak -____-"

well the thing is, I wanna buy clothes later this evening with mom. So I asked them to drop me at Parkson first. yeah sist, with achot -_-" because sayg said he couldn't be there for long. so for the sake of being scared alone, I brought that lil tarzan along. hahah. and he's .... quite good today. weird. malu jak jak jak jak bah nya. iboh jadi gay bah achot. plis? haha. but sekda jwak bah beli baju yaaa. I have no idea what I'll be wearing tomorrow. gewsh.

nyeeeeeeeeeeh. kejap alu bah jumpa nya tek. :( at least ada bah oh. sorry for the last minute invitation. lol. again, AT LEAST ada kan. aih miciu ordy bah. gar. and I didn't get my chance to step into Popular. ee bah. first2 nya bukak bah. then sampey cya balit nya tutup bah blog. dah la still xda rujukan untuk bwat kerja yaaa. cikgu bahasa malaysia pasti akan marah terhadap saya dan saya akan berasa takut yang amat lalu menarik muka side epek. bagaimanakah ini blog? mehh watev with that. and met Amie and his fam today. oh patrick so long no seee. haha. then eat together with them yadayada. spent time dengan cdak until cdak balit. kakya left the two of us. tragic. boring gilababy. kayo2 jak lam parkson ya as if we're the best sibling alive. hahaha apaka geya. eh oh oh kmk temu seetah aie atas ya. hahaa rindu ng ktk eh! x)

bananaheart :) *and what's with the face oh? camera kat depan la* haha.

oh blog, this is keraks I tell you.

here I am now crapping about my damn day. a VERY FINE day for me, a very boring post for you blog. booohooo too bad. :( I feel like, finishing my homework. again craps about my bladihel hw. bergh! I don't want this hols to end. please? next countdown will be .. march's school break. 14 March. =] happy to know there will be another hols. whopeeee.

oh last night. I felt down down down. and I took my so-called son's advice. though u're an annoying hamsterrr. always go emo with your emotes! rawr. but thanks, I'll be doomed if you didn't tell me what to do. hahaha. well, it was.... I feel GREEDY. very very very greedy. oh you get what I meant? kak, you understand this. rasanya sy warisi sifat ini dari kamu bah. I hate sharing. ugh well not sharing. idk how to say it. all I know is I have to take the fact that he have his own life. dan saya harus terima anyone that's in there. don't mind the jealousy please? I hate that feeling. you won't believe that I have that level of jealousy WAAAAAAAAAAY higher than you. trust me, I just won't show it. 'cause I know I have to deal with it myself. right? :)

and I met this adorable creature last night. she's soooo cute I tell you. *yeah every kid is* but the diff is.. she loves me. :)) hahaha. I tink her name was.. syafiqa? not sure. but her mom called her Ika. awwh levyu lol

I set you to private ordy blog. not that anyone read you. so I'll be more comfortable writing here. yeah right. Maybe I'll set you to public again after awhile okay? then set you to private again and public again. and private again. I know you don't mind. love youuuu bloggie. <3

lonely author like wtf so emo,

nuggie.

bladihel

attetion to Syayg! your blog cracked me up. haha. fikir lah depan2 jak sik betol. virtually pun sot ka? you prove ittttt. ;P eee bah. you better finish all the homeworks baaaaah. I haven't done any. especially the big big majee jeeme majeejee jameemajeegaga mahjong paper eh. should call the ultraman by now kan? :( and I miss laughing at you bah sya. haha

meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

holla people. happy thursday blog. :) hope it's gonna really be a happy one. so far, it's not. hujan turun bagaikan awan sudah sarat selama bertahun-tahun. aku rasa macam tenang jak? not really la. macam ada one of those bulls trapped inside my heart and keep on trying to escape. gaaah wtf. well I supposed to go out today but I knew I can't. because ..

I went out last tuesday with them cuzzies. well, usual spot of course. so we watched Inkheart. cineplex was pretty empty. sik banyak org bah diat. time diat movie ya pun cam senyap jak except dengar abie tetak tah pa menda ditetak. overall, it's a good movie. and did you watch Tinkerbell? It's uhmazing. hahaha. and I went out yesterday too with loveyy. oh I had a great day, tenkiu. :] and again, watched Inkheart. nang bes la cita ya sampey diat ulang2 oh? haha. macam deja vu jak. -___-" but but ada perbezaan la dwak hari ya. there were more people in the there yesterday. mehh whatever. so here's some random pics.

this was on tuesday. and that is Hasbie. happy belated birthday to you, old man. lol

tht's moi nemo :) *how frustating for not having my own face in his pics* bergh.

oh you made my day. tenkiu :))

boo. :))

and hello this is Riz. :] *ttba jak amik gamba oh?* ahha

and that's riz-look-alike kid on the left. and riz said me-look-alike on the right. lol. hwahwa. gambar curik dr blakang tiang. tiyut wo. tp sik clear :(

So that's the reason why I couldn't go out today. I guess I couldn't. meh whatev. sorry kepada yang berkenaan okay? perhaps next time. not that I will make any different. lol.

hmmmm. saya bingong. the lazyness is conquering me bloggg. I need to do my homework real fast but here I am sitting here typing this like I'm school-free. I remember giving up the last time I open my add maths book. and now I realized I didn't even try. omgaaaah. and I didn't even start learning chemistry. eeeeeeeeeeeeeee I seriously don't understand everything that was thought bah blog. Chai, help :( and physics too. need to study how to do the freakin calculations. menda simple pun sekpat tangkap. I'm still in my 2008's year-end holidays mood bah. dah la the yang terminal 3 ya suma blom bwat. not even the front page. xda buku rujukan gk. oh damn it's gonna be a really busy weekend for me. and oh history. I don't even have any marker. mind doing all ka Haidil? aha cam la he read my blog. garh.

I need to stop typing all these craps. so take care ya peeps? enjoy sisa baki hols tok oraitt.

oh oh saygs.

In the long run, it's not a question of whether they deserve to be forgiven. You're not forgiving them for their sake. You're doing it for yourself. For your own health and well-being, forgiveness is simply the most energy-efficient option. It frees you from the incredibly toxic, debilitating drain of holding a grudge. Don't let these people live rent free in your head. If they hurt you before, why let them keep doing it year after year in your mind? It's not worth it but it takes heart effort to stop it. You can muster that heart power to forgive them as a way of looking out for yourself. It's one thing you can be totally selfish about.

-- Doc Childre and Howard Martin. *HAHAHA*

much laughs,

nuggie

oh yea right

you don't have to read this.

kay kakak jak. haha

kay kay. read it. damn la. manas bah >:( plentey2 gik owg cyus. gik asa. bok taw mao bait ngan org. wahaah. cis. LAMAK alu gk nunggu ya. mao pujok jwak ka? haha calie. lol. thanks for the info nway. damn it. I'm so bored. oh yea oh yea. well she didn't brought us along. she said sik mao kecoh2. dah la pegi umah my mummy bah ya nak. ngegeh alu jak bah sik mao mbak. and uhmm. she managed to change my seat during the dinner. I'll be sitting with them instead of sitting alone. I was planning not to go if I'll be sitting with those strangers. I was supposed to sit with you bah nak. grr. damn them.

well, see you in 7 months? HAHA DAMN.

miss you too. I grew taller *eyebroweyebrow* haha paka.

**

yarabeh. gila panas eh. happy chinese new year, again. won't be getting any angpao bah this year. tragic. thanks to mom for this. grr. made a new xanga account last night. because I can't seem to find any reason to get on9 nowadays. baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I feel so week and lazy. and lazy and lazy. very lazy I tell you. I should have start working on my homework since Friday. but I didn't. gila bah ini macam. eeh. I baked brownies. should I tell you that? was veryyyy lazy to do it at first. but...... jgn dilayan ilak mls ya. ish you go bake la if rajin ilak. -___-" bisin bah those dunce. coba la ada dewa dari memana kayangan ttba show up kakya panah cdak ng kilat. sak asa. grr. up and awayy. wanna do more surveys. haha ciao.

should have

brapa tarikh ritok pun ku xtaw. whatev whatev. I shud finish all of my homework before start enjoying my hols. enjoy la sangat -____-" it's only 10:27 and I already heard the bang bang boom boom of these people. tunggu la kol 12 ohh. haiya. happy chinese new year anw. I think it's raining outside. ugh. I have no frikin idea. feel like sleeping. feel like not. oh dang I'm bored. I hate today I hate today I hate today.

cuti cuti cuti. :DD I've been waiting for this since the first day of school. not to mention the year-end hols. sik sabaa woi. hhahhaha. one week is sooo short I tell you. one week of machines-free. I'm so not gonna miss school.

gar gar gar. I'm so pissed off.
I should have never trust anyone.
I should never trust what people say.
I should never fall for that.
I'm not your INVISIBLE bestfriend. okay?

gila bah kedak tok.

oh please lah. I'm so tired bah. :(
I've gotten my new actual diary already.
sorry if I'll be posting very very very teming.

I've gone nuts.
I can't control my temper.
I'm being much more sarcastic.
I laughed too much. even in wrong situation.
My mood changes according to the wind.
I've gain my appetite back. hungry all the time.
I feel like cursing, every single second.
I wanna sleep like EVERY FREAKIN TIME.
I feel like I've been treating some people wrongly. yes, I do.
I wanna scream at everybody. ugh
I can't stop talking. I CAN'T. get it?
DON'T FARKIN SHUT ME UP.
'cause you won't like my silent mode.
or maybe you will. kay, I'll try talking less.

sep sep sep.
sep atas sep debah.
sep depan sep blakang.
ku sepak ko klak. isk!

dah jadi gila,

nuggie.

go girl. :(

Freakin exhausted but I'm still doing this. Don't wanna neglect you blog ;] gotta do homeworks some more anyway. No diff.

• I wanna eat real food. Haven't touch any for like ... several days already.
• but I doesn't seem to have that much appetite anymore. :(
• there's no real food anyway. I want cakes. Please?
• I gave up at trying to have enough sleep. So little time so much to do.
• and yes, I want to have enough sleep. maybe saturday will do.
• I'm tired of writing. I'M SICK OF WRITING. Can't we type at school?
• I wanna uderstand what I learnt everyday at school.
• yet I didn't do anything if I don't. Help me.
• I hate getting all the blames. Again, hate it.
• I dislike those curious feelings. It doesn't feel right.
• Saya benci proses pemejalwapan antara satu sama lain.
• BINGONG BINGONG BINGONG BENGONGGGGGGGGGG,

nuggie.

missing it.

the rain had just stopped. I guess. but I bet it's going to rain again after this. RAIN♥ it's not that Korean guy. rain as in hujan la. not that Hujan band either. wth am I typing about. I sat outside just now. enjoying the rain. and staring at the empty road, it brought me back to my past times. back when I was little. when I was young and useless. when there's nothing to worry about except getting scolded by mom. -__-" hmm. when it was raining, we'll bring chairs to the living room and make a camp of our own. you know, put those blankets on the chair and tadaaa. it's like camping in a modern jungle. ada ka camya? ngaa. the childhood memories. it have always been with me all these time. the hut we had at our backyard. chill there like every evening. us kids knew nothing but fun. can I make a new one now? haha. wrestling on the bed till someone's head hits the wall and the we'll cry blaming each other. got naked outside the house and shove each other with the water like no one is watching. we were kids. pa pikey ko? x) the streets also reminded me about how long I've been staying here. everything came to me just now and I realised how much I miss being that lil snitch. having sist around all day to play with. though we used to fight a lot back that time. I just want a time machine. I dislike being where I am right now. I don't want to take responsibility. I don't want to learn complicated stuff everyday. immature ain't I? -O- please la someone ajak main jadi kat skolah esok. bole ka camya? boleh la please. skali jak bah. heh.

oh oh kak, found your locket when I was cleaning the room yesterday. sikit lagik mao buang benda ya. haha. and you know what. I think I tercall you this eveing because I miss you la. hahaks. :)

sheeeeeeesh. it's monday tomorrow. gotta start finishing the homeworks.

waaaaaaaaa. :'

much loves,

nuggie.

works. :(

howdy blog! :D I'm freakin ti to the red. TIRED MAN. garh. did a major room cleaning today. and I guarantee it won't last more than 2 days. like seriously. esok pun blom pasti dapat bertahan kekemasannya -__-" I think I'm gonna be sick. In case I do get sick, thanks to those pixie dusts. sneezed for like billion times already.

oh. the first week of school is over. hahahaha. like who cares. gilak bosan lah the school. woke up everyday with the I-wish-I'm-dead mood. datang2 skolah trus tunggu saat mao balit. :( you get what I mean? you probably do. I slept in most classes. couldn't help it. I was so tired and every subject is OHSOBORING. act not that it's boring. it's because I didn't understand most of them. mena bah, xbulak. go enjoy being in lower form ey. you'll regret if you don't. haha. dnga2 banyak benda xda this year. sukan, pesta tanjong and all. like wth -.- awww bila la 2010. eh no. coba la maseh 2008. waaaaaaaachu.

baaaaaaaah. buat homework juh. :(

*yawnyawnyawn*

nuggie.

sekul sekul.

yea yea yea yea I dislike school bah blog. I dislike those NEW STUFF. I dislike the schedule. I dislike the place itself. panas bah. dah la kipas cgek jak.. kelas gk tang kecik alu jak. ish. COMPLAIN JAK TAW. xpandey bsyuko. -.-" and now I'm friggin tired. like wtf balit pukol 2.50? eh that's NOT the school fault. sapa soh tdo ahey. grrrrh. I just simply don't wanna go to school. get it? :)

xxxxxnugggie.

stop counting.

sorry for the late update. lazyness striked me again blog. :S

so yesterday. the school registration. went there a lil bit late. I'm in 4 CEKAL blog. not really happy with it though.. but okay jak lah. terima hakikat can't be with some friends. && I'm still sitting next to my syayg. :D hoho. the class is at the cekap building. how I wish that building will collapse tonight. -____-" baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. school IS tomorrow. rasa cam baruk marek bah start cuti. eesh dang dang. I so don't feel like going la. harap-harap la school is not like what I expected. :/

btw, we went to Esplanade that evening with them family. don't really feel like elaborating. but I'm sure I had a great time. sis already wrote about it tho. but here's a picture. :) my day revolved around him. haha.

TODAY. had lunch at dinasty. went to parkson and mall and did a last minute shopping. wew. too bad, still couldn't find any backpack though. garrrr. I'm tired already and I think that's only it. I don't wanna go to school. seriously. please?

oh ohhhhhhhh. Happy Birthday to my dear Dayang Liyana<3 semoga panjang umo and wish you all the best best best and the bestest luck. may you have a wonderful year. sorry can't go teman-ing you today. you lambat pdh bah. :( anw, love you dear. :]

Because you’re very special

Hope your Birthday holds in store

Happy hours that overflow

With all you’re wishing for,

And hope the days that follow it

Make up a year that brings

Everything that you deserve

A million happy things B)

pelok tiyom sayang mwah,

nuggie.

oh mannnnnnnn.

ohoho. hye blog. :] epp. Assalamualaikum. sounds better. hee. it's already 3rd January now ohh. school registration mannn. how I wish I could extend the hols. for like.. one more year? that's already enough for me. wait, one year without school...... NAYYY. sounds pretty boring too. then school it is. furthermore school is much better than just sitting at home right? all you need to do is learn. read, write, count, write, read, and oh think think and think. and your friends who could brighten your everyday will be there too. so it's really not that bad right. mmyeah, friends are what I go to school for. -____-" another year of learning at KTDTHB. nyenyenyenyenye. ilang mood taep nama skolah yea eh. pergh!

ohh yesterday. Friday 2nd. met him after one month and two weeks. ;) hhaha. camsial I miss you okayyy. I think you know that already. went out with Sist Ain and Jaynol and his cuzz. and of course with lovelove. :D but I didn't took any pics except for theirs. -O- sangat geram tok blog. So we watched Australia. It's an interesting movie. maybe. if you somehow understand them. 'CAUSE I DON'T. yeap. starting from the beginning till the end. I have no idea what was it about. well maybe I will if I concentrate on every word that was said. JUST MAYBE. such a boring movie erh. rugi jak diat. bagus dudok kat lwa diat tv jak. tahniah kepada Jaynol kerana memilih cerita ini. cerita ini tersangat sangat sangatlah best. best melampaui batas-batas best yang boleh diterima minda. sehingga sy tidak tahu part mana yang best. fahamkah anda perasaan saya, Jaynol? ishishish. mmm. then balik rumah lepas pegi pasar malam.

around 8 ; went to Kak Wati's house. lepaking I guess. gila sakit perut tetak macam org sik pnah tetak jak. one thing fer sure. Abie is extremely annoying. like always, duhh. :) we talked too much. we laughed too hard. and someone almost roll from laughing. ahha! then went back home around 1AM. mehhh. so far, it's a good day. :]

much laugh,

nuggie

first day? haha

drive drive drive your car

gently down the drain.

merrily merrily merrily merrily

life is but a treat.

I fall asleep on the couch last night while watching Transformers. that was around four? I have no idea. Then bangun2 jak trus knak paksa mandik -___-" not really a GOOD day. went to pengilan. then back home. nap for a while. stuff stuff. woke up and watch The Midnight Meat Train. and one word ; EWWWWWW. seriously blog. go watch then you'll know what I mean. haha. uhm. then cuzzies came. stuff stuff. guess theres nothing more to tell about. feel like sleeping already. and it's only 2218. sheeesh.

weyyyyyyyyyyyyyy esok friday. :( then saturday. then sunday. then school gonna start. I don't want school to start. though all beloved friends will be there. but I hate school :( I really do. and have to adapt the the Form 4 stuff. darn. I don't think it's easy liao. and look at KOLEJ! I was shocked when I went there last tuesday. burok bah. mena, xbulak. :( eeeee. garr. eeeeeeeeeeeee. I wanna meet you. :'( meow?

just look at that. darn

xldeifhajkclkjasnmcsh,

nuggie

new year & happy bdayy!

hey world.
HAPPY NEW YEAR

___

same old same old,
GOODBYE 2008, HELLO 2009! (:

2009?

stop cursing stop cursing stop cursing stop cursing.

& respect others. :]

get more active. yes, ACTIVE. at school perhaps?

always remember that it's not any honeymoon year.

do not neglect them homeworks.

appreciate more.

smile sincerely?

stop cursing stop cursing.

____

SO. I wish everyone will have another great

and memorable year okay?

"We will open the book.

Its pages are blank.

We are going to put words on them ourselves.

The book is called Opportunity

and its first chapter is New Year's Day"

~Edith Lovejoy Pierce~

___

ANW. YOUUUU!

SARAHHHH. sorry for not knowing that it's your birthday today.

I have no friggin idea dowh. :(

so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANGGGGG! :D

honestly, idk bah pa mao wish tok. wanna know what's in my head?

yellow submarine and socks. =,=? like seriously.

you ingat sik pa menda yaa? haha. old stories babe. hahahaa

whatev wif that. wish you all the best eyy. and stay awesome darl.

may Allah bless you.

and oh, you rawk & I love youuuuuuu. :]

lame jwak my birthday wish tok. -____-"

much loves,

nugget ;)