This is the way.

Look at my last post! It was approximately 1 year ago. Wow, how much things changed for the last 9 months of my life. Ehek! Okay I was just shocked that my last post is like that. I was still head over heels with the fishy. Awww I miss those moments :C

I've been in a really bad roller-coaster ride this year though. I went through months trying to get over him. I've done everything I could. I treat people badly and I treat myself quite unfair. But look where I am now? I'm back here at last. Back to where I was before. Maybe it's not the end of it yet. Maybe this is the road I should really take. Maybe it's just him. And I finally feel I got my home back. And yes, I fell in love with the same person again :)

But oh well, as I thought things are getting better, no it's not. It would never be the same again. The choice I made has made people turn their backs around me. And the closest people to me are against me now. No matter how much they denied it, action speaks louder than words. And they wonder why I never tell them about my problems? Look where it brought me to now.

I miss my brother. I really missed him. The way he talk to me changed. The way he look at me changed. He don't even look or talk to me, to be exact. I just want some honesty eh? If I disgust you, then tell me. I'll put off all my effort to be nice.

I stopped all the effort of pretending I'm fine when I actually never am. You think this is easy for me eh? One phrase baby and that's it I'm done, put yourself in my shoes and see how badly you treat me and maybe you'll understand how much I suffered! Thanks.