Now

I'm start wondering where would life take me now. Everything seems unsure and I don't like that feelings. For a moment, it was perfect. For another moment, it seems so messed up. I don't wanna live in people's expectations. I don't wanna live in my own expectations either. The more confident I get, the more opposite assumptions the world is giving me.

I'm trying to gain your trust. Please don't doubt me. I know I may be unbelievable at times, but I do love you that much. I love you that much to try my best to gain your trust. Please see my effort. It won't worked out if I'm the only one who's trying. If you expect me to change, don't you think you should be either? It's a two-ways action. Baby, we can work this out, please? Just because I'm going nowhere doesn't mean you don't have to show me you love me. ;(

I'm sorry I've been bragging about the same thing over and over again. It bothers me quite a lot. It's confusing to know he act differently when I'm already so sure about this. It's heartbreaking. Maybe he can start by at least asking am I okay or not.

Well HELL-O! Yesterday, September 7th, I went out with sis and her friends. Well they are quite lovely I tell ya. Though I don't get along pretty well. Well there was Aom, Ctah, Meeza, Nisha and Leyna. At least Sheeira accompanied me by being a half-stranger there. Woot. Warung's Nasi ayam butter is the best I tell ya. And shisha though I'm having a bad fever. It got a whole worst after that anyway so whatever.

Aom is being annoying right now.