Kimia

Sighs. Dad went back to Kuching.

I forgot that today is Icam's birthday. Seriously, I totally forgot about it even though I wished him on time for 2 years straight. I'm disappointed in myself, really. I didn't even know today is Adzman's birthday to be exact. Maybe I'm just gonna get them something next week. I don't promise on that but maybe! I wanna show I'm sorry. Sighs.

Today had been pretty boring. Well, not really but I think. Our English teacher just talked for the entire class. Encouraging us to excel in English paper. It does sound THAT easy anyway. But English paper usually depends on your luck. It's your luck if you can relate any topic of the essay's options to your life.

We did colouring during our counselling class with Mr. Monir. It was fun though. Colouring to determine your personalities. When I was half way there, he explained the meaning for the colours. It was catchy. I coloured the body of the turtle chocolate ; means I love to help people when they're in need. and red ; I have bad temper. and black too ; I am very stubborn. The colour of my leaves were purple ; I love to do nature activities that people are usually not fond of. I coloured the mushroom yellow ; I get jealous when I tend to see other people eat foods that I want. I coloured the skies blue ; I can go far in life, but I have doubts about it.

So I was like, which of these colours showed that I'm so kind that I treat people way too nicely that they always took advantage of me? Ha. I got mad at the beginning of that class. I accidentally poured out those cursing words when they joke, again. I guess I just can't take it anymore. I can seriously throw the chair out of the window if I really can't hold it in you guys. Appreciate my effort please? :)

Juliana taught us History today. and trust me, she's way better than Mr. Jantai. I can still remember the facts she told us. Thank God someone like her exist.

Again, arguing with you is such a waste of time. I'm always wrong. I feel like running away from you. I just don't know whether I can or not. I need you :( but everything you said in your last text make it seems like I burdened your thoughts. I really wants you to study. I'm sorry for always letting you down then. :(

Ho yeah, yesterday was fun oh? Kutip-ing rocks wasn't that bad after all. It was ridiculous but good, in a way. Esp when I got that feeling again. The feeling I last had when it was the beginning of last year. When I was still me. Things changed I guess.

I'm considering an addmaths workshop this Sunday. I just don't whether I should go or not. Please show me some sign :(

I was trying to study chemistry when I stopped and look for something else to do. I-Sucks. SIGHS