konfesi? aiskrim atau confession?

aye aye blog. must be missing me so badly ah? :P (oke aku xckp dengan menda cmtok in evryday life) wait, HELLO BLOG. :D

I had lost interest in updating my blog because of few or many reasons. I'm not even sure about that one. Yes, I do have because. firstly, because I don't really have interesting stuffs to talk about. especially when it comes to my daily life. as I noticed, my life is very dull, I may say and talking about it makes me feel more pathetic. seriously. :O next, I want to be completely lifeless from now on. and by the usage of the word lifeless, I hope everyone knows what I'm talking about. I am in the process of making it happen. wish me luck blog. uhm. whats more. I don't feel safe here kot? HAHA I DONT FEEL SAFE. feel like my life is surrounded by spies - does that makes any sense? lawl. and yeah, I found a new hobby and I'm very pleased with it. :)

post ini mungkin akan mengandungi unsur2 kekeliruan tetapi siapakah peduli? ITUlah yang kita tak tahu. (tone laki dalam cerita los & faun oke) minggu ini sangat pantas berlalu. oh craps, the whole year tengah speeding dowh. dan bulan Jun dah. eh wait, July in few days. thats freakin creepy ;( and as far as I know, I've been livin a different life this half year. things changed and getting stranger. the atmosphere of school isn't like how it was before. I mean before. before any of this happened. HA. kadang2 terpikir how things happened and AHH, I deserved it kot? (lantak ah ko nak ckp aku emo tah pa benda suma) all I know is I wanna pee right now. bila benda dah jadi, baru ko nak nyesal kan? haha itu memang aku kot. I think after I act and then I'll regret with those thing I done or said.

I haven't write any nota-perasaan-untuk-sendiri for awhile. the last time I did that.. okay when was the last time ay? oh before the holiday. and my self-note was read by not-myself-in-front-of-me. -___-" I liked it when chuppy wrote "dont be emo. be grateful of what you have." at least something like that la. and that made me realize, I have to let go of some things no matter how badly I want it or need it. and yes, I moved on. though it bothers me a lot sometimes. but ftw, I shud stop and look around more. life is pretty amazing with people who really cares. :D

and blog, I admit that my life is getting more interesting. ok sekarang aku berubah. aku akan berfikir sebelum bertindak. (ini cuma akan berlaku jika ayam dekat blakang rumah sudah pandai makan petai) meh meh meh. off I go, shud be sleeping now. toodles. talk to you in the next chapter.